Lately I have been feeling smaller it might be the fact I have lost weight over the last 3 years.. 50 pounds. I would like to say wow… but I just been eating less and I got diabetes .. but that is a post for another day. So I have been feeling physically smaller, because the clothes are smaller.
Just recently I was taken back, by how Amazonian I really am. In this picture.. I look like a giant next to the other women.
I normally take pictures alone so there is no frame of reference, to how big I am compared to others.. or I bend down. But in this picture I feel huge as physically overwhelming.. I am reminded of a girl I knew in college. She was 6’2″ she was about 3″ taller than me and I felt overtaken by her larger than life personality and physical presence.. I guess I know how people feel standing next to me.
I forget that I am so tall compared to other women. My not so delicate 5’11” frame and weighting in at 249 .. I am about 5-6″ taller than other women and abut 100 lb heavier. Yea well today I am reminded that I am larger and taller then others and I will never blend in.
I will never know what it is to feel like my blogging friends petite Jessica Cohen in the middle. The 1st few years I dated my husband my now mother in law called me ..Tall One.. she is 4″11.. my son out grew her by age 10. I will always be in the last back row of pictures with the men and behind the other women.. sigh
So I have no choice .. I will try to embrace it and enjoy it. I am very rarely forgot and being tall commands a sense of respect whether I earned it or not.
The thing is I like being Tall.. I actually was wearing 2″ heels in this picture.
What is your big girl thing that sometimes takes you by surprise?
